I got to drive Jade’s car all by myself today. I don’t know why I’m still waiting to get my license because driving is so awesome. I blasted some Against Me! and screamed along with it because today turned really emotional really fast. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life, I don’t know how to feel about that, I don’t feel like I know myself anymore, I don’t know if I ever really did, and I don’t know how to deal with it.

Then Kelly had to ask me what was wrong because he said I look like I’ve been crying. Then I had to come up with some semi-bogus reason why just to hold a conversation with him. I say semi-bogus because I am not actually sure what’s wrong, so I just told him something that’s been bothering me. This is stupid.