Le Sigh

Lately, I’ve been feeling really uncomfortable. Not physically, but emotionally and mentally. I don’t really know how to describe how I’m feeling better than that. I feel kind of like a dog who has been left home alone all day, who sits looking out the window whining and waiting for Mommy and Daddy to come back. I really miss Oshie, and I think that’s what’s putting me in such a lonely state of mind. I talk to him on the phone occasionally, but it gets complicated when he can only use his mom’s boyfriend’s phone, it’s four hours ahead in Puerto Rico, and I’m working everytime he tries to call. He is getting his phone mailed to him, so I will be able to call him whenever soon, but this long distance thing is still so difficult. I am still so attached to him, I can’t even think about trying to be with someone else. There is this guy that I work with who is really attractive (and thanks to Jade, everyone knows now, including him, and the elephant grows larger every day we work together), but I don’t even want to initiate anything because I can’t bear to leave Oshie behind me. I just should have been born a wolf because those motherfuckers mate for life. Or maybe a seahorse or something, I don’t know.